of beginnings and endings...

2006-12-25T23:21:00.000+08:00

this faithful ol' bloggie has served me memoirs of my four years of stinky crap. and i finally decided to move to Xanga. this blog shall not be terminated just yet. though i am against those who move blogs here and there, im doing likewise. oh. well.
visit more of me at
http://www.xanga.com/malibusweetness

2006-12-23T23:17:00.000+08:00

having a break from boring Blogger as i have found another new refreshing easygoing spouse named Xanga. te heh. also signed up-officially a Vlogger too.
la la.

2006-12-22T00:30:00.000+08:00

i do not like my blog layout anymore. gah. i was so careless today. supposed to get janice's results for her from college and i forgot to bring the letter written from her mum. it was so troublesome. i had to forge the letter, thankfully, it was accepted. coming back to subang is one big drag. heh. cheers to my blunderness. yet again.
watched the movie, gridiron. about the wrestling guy (dont know whats his name). was so sleepy. yawn. hah.
i am joining my abandoned contemperary dance classes again. which i need. and dance for Beep is completed. now, its the buttons drama. haih. these dances are getting pretty stressful.
my bangs are weird. i mean, weird. im not letting it down till it grows. its fugly uuugly.
nobody is to use chaos the mouse. you hear me. nobody. you copy cat! (flings my hair)
speaking of monash, i was keeping my fingers crossed over taking photography as one of my electives and yeah! they have visual and designing photomedia there. whooo phee dooo! of course, they dont have contemperary and performing arts in monash. what do you expect. tsk tsk tsk.

2006-12-20T22:55:00.000+08:00

hii deee hoo! i'm back in action yet again. so much to blog about, i shall contain myself to shorten it =) this is going to be a post full of words, because uploading pics are a waste of time. as you know, i have just returned from spore yesterday. much excitement over results coming out TODAY. honestly, i'm ECSTATIC JOYOUS over my not-so-great results. it was higher than what i expected, and yes. i get to go Monash! wooo phee doo! as long as i'm happie..! wheee! i woke up at eight in the morn with much enthusiast and boy, the internet was exploding. and the page couldnt load. i nearly went insane! luckily, i managed to call Aussie and i was yeaying so loud! i think the caller got freaaaaaked out. ha ha. congrats to everyone! SAM is officially over and out!~
lets get back to singapura. i took this bus company called AeroLine. its a double decker bus, pretty cool. passengers sit upstairs, and a lounge downstairs. the chairs are huge, and they serve you a meal. its not that bad actually. the next day, i met up with loo ee von as she was there earlier. we walked for ten hours at orchard. let me inform you about faye intuition i have. on that day itself, Guess had its first day of sale! wheee! and as usual, the stuff were dirt cheap. so we bought. bought and bought. last season's clothes. but who cares. we didnt get much at Takashimaya but we got most of our stuff at Scotts.
day two was an outing to Suntec City and Marina Square (you get down at City Hall). this time, mum bought a lot of Guesses as there were a LOT of nicey stuff. she was coming up lame questions like.. whats the name of ths top? I said 'Guess'. she says 'yaa..guess la... what brand?'. I said 'Guess'. she says 'guess laa.. what brand?'. i was so irritated. sheesh.
third day.. met E Lyn and Ke Chia. they wanted to go Suntec, so i went again. we went to Vivo City (the new shopping complex) later that day. and Roxanna is gonna love that place. Vivo has Spain brands like Zara that we dont have it in Msia like Pull and Bear, Desigual and yada yada. clothes were pretty cool. when we were at Pull and Bear, i saw Jien (from Disney Buzz-my old crush). I was like 'elyn elyn elyn... jien jien jien!'. her face turned tomato red! ha ha. it was so hilarious. i also met the Singapore Idol winner, name is John i reckon. and some sgpore actress.
forth day, i stayed at home. behaved myself. slept till three in the afternoon.
fifth day, attacked orchard yet again. it was Mambo time! i think i splurged the most at Mambo cause things were pretty much going for 50 and 70 percent off. their mini skirts were hard to say no to. and they had sweaters, tops, surf pants... such niceness. since Gap was cheaper in sgpore, i finally bought Gap. MNG had sales. and mind you, it was such a big sale. they needed security guards all over. and you actually have to line up to get in. its crazy. clothes were lots to pick from. since i'm not mng material. mother bought almost the whole shop. she was holding nine tops comprising of blouses, spags and yada. she asked 'is nine a lot?'. i replied 'yes'. so she bought EIGHT. what a difference. hmph.
sixth day, went to Tampines Mall. had PastaMania, cheaper nicer version of Itallianies. managed to get billabong thongs that msia dont have! hmph. ha ha. went for Midnight Shopping at Bugis Junction.
seventh day, went to Vivo with mummy. i finally bought tops from realitee (topshop). close two eyes and buy la.
eight day, went to Bugis street. wanted to get a pair of flat shoes. and they were out of sizes. darnn! they were only 19.90 sing dollars and they looked like topshoppies. gah. my stupid big feet drives me bonkers.
ninth day, last shopping at Parkway. i was a good girl yet again. only bought a top. giggles.
tenth day was a bye-bye day. we didnt get taxed this time. thankfully. we smuggled twenty packs of timtams made in Aussie from sgpore successfully! hooray! by the way, timtams sold here tastes horrible! those who are leaving to Aussie must taste their Timtams! two thumbs up*
i was watching Girls Out Loud in sgpore (a series) with Xiaxue in it. i wasnt too fond of her getting paid for blogging and all. and her love for pink and all that, ha ha. but i realised.. the series was pretty funny. and yeah, she deserves to get paid. and the series was about two girls who are totally against her and all that. one takes nude pics and the other signed a petition to ban her from Orchard. i was like sheesh. whats your problem? they didnt like things she posted on her blog and all. i mean blogging is talking about what you enjoy, if you dont like it, dont read it. as simple as that. i reckon they were. sour grapes. ha ha ha. too bad i cant catch the serieses anymore. boo hoo.
i'm given the opportunity to plan for You! Beautiful Women for 2008 (Girl Conference) in Perth when i go aussie. thanks to Ps Sandra. i'm pumped for it!

2006-12-08T22:23:00.000+08:00

There is nothing either good or bad but thinking makes it so by William Shakespeare.

hm. how true is that. one say that, drinking beer or whatever alcohol let it be wine itself is a sin. setting a bad influence. have you forgotten that Jesus tasted wine too? thats not that severe. nowadays, churches are setting rules to youths that best friends are to be made only with the same sex. I totally disagree. I don't see myself emotionally attached to some guys whom I close with. this is not the question thats involving religion actually. it truly depends on the insecurities you have within you, and also maturity. it doesnt mean if you're close to someone in the opposite sex, would make you, actually liking that person more than that. well, tell that to certain people who have a different mind set. by setting this to the youth, what makes you? God? a good leader? if you want whats best for the people you care about, you should not set rules and use such approaches to so call in YOUR terms. advice.

I strongly believe that such advices about young naive relationships can be channeled in a way that.. if both parties are growing spiritually together despite being in a relationship, matured enough to handle the consequences, and helping each other out. whats the harm in it? I mean, as christians, I think we can say that you know, you can get into relationships. but it is advised NOT TO because we have to let time do the talking and pray to God if this is the best thing to do, or is it what HE WANTS YOU TO DO? instead of, ohhh! you cannot get yourself involved. its wrong! God says its wrong! you're gonna go to HELL if you do this. la la la.

lets take this in another point of view. imagine a non-Christian. attending a seminar on BGR. you, unconsciously, brain wash the youth about the whole BGR (boy girl relationship). how would the non christial perspect about Christianity? they must be thinking, hmmm. they're trained to become nuns or something. why can't some of these churches do it like my church? where leaders will advise younger ones, in a healthy manner, that it isn't the right time yet. how hard is that? imposing rules will only make them create a blocking wall to hear anything you say anymore. they will judge you by. paranoid.

situations. neither good nor bad. thinking makes it. you do something, which in your policy. is harmless. others, think its bad. why do people ever care what others think? well, sometimes. circumstances. like myself, I don't care about something. about what people say. this person comes along and changes the whole scenario by saying. its wrong! imagine what will people sayyy? you must set a good example. GOD this GOD that. firstly, I know God. and if you want to talk about God, please get your Godly topics and advices straight and right. listen to yourself and ask yourself. is this what God said? or what you said? oh okay. more like, what YOU say, and using GOD"s name to get things YOUR way. tsk tsk tsk. I wonder who's going to hell now. hah. (oh and by the way, talking about a few people that I'm not quite happy about because the people they followed up on becoming a christians, came back to me and complained. plus, other Christians who listened to their speech expressed themselves and lose respect for such). imagine, losing your own dignity.

on a lighter note, I'm off to Singapore, will be back on the 19th. and SAM blogders, SAM results will be out soon. I repeat, super soon. now you know why I have to go Spore wilth mum first before she gets a stroke or something.

2006-12-08T00:43:00.000+08:00

Did you ever look at a picture of yourself and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many people have pictures of you, how many moments of other people's lives we've been in. Were we part of someone's life when their dream came true, or were we there when their dreams died? Did we keep trying to get in, as if we were somehow destined to be there? Or did the shot take us by surprise? Just think, you could be a big part of someone else's life, and not even know it.

There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment who will you be? Will you let down your defenses and find solace in someone unexpected? Will you reach out? Will you face your greatest fears bravely or move forward with faith? Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads. Afraid. Confused. Without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us would rather turn around and go back. But once in awhile people push on to something better-something found just beyond the pain of going it alone and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in. Or to give someone a second chance.Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. Because it's only when you're tested that you discover who you truly are. And it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be. The person you want to be does exist, somewhere on the other side of hard work, faith and belief, and beyond heartache and fear of what lies ahead.

I knew I failed you. I cherish your paper heart and I promise to do whatever it takes to make sure it doesn't tear up.

George Elliott wrote in his writings in the book I finished reading, 'There is no despair so absolute as that which comes from the first moments of our first great sorrow when we have not yet known what it is to have suffered and healed, to have despaired and recovered hope.

2006-12-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

trace's new hairdo. now, why can't guys in this part of the world get this type of hair? okay. prolly not so. blame the lousy hairdressers righto? i agree. look at the different shades of colour. blonde, black, purple and a little red behind. coolio banga!

I have just returned from a day out in Mid Valley with my aunt and cousies, tried Teppanyaki (for the first time). laugh all you want. snicker all you want. i had beef teppanyaki. boy, its good! two thumbs up* I didn't buy anything at all today. clapclapclap*

chels asked me in msn, do you like forever 21? answer is, not really. why? she asked. i say, cause EVERYBODY IS SHOPPING THERE! she said, is that your reason? yes it is. she said, its the stupidest reason she ever heard. and i'm the most idiotic person on earth.

now now chels, I wouldn't call myself an idiot. I would much prefer, self-centred. fixation on clothings which is less populated in where I live. chels, please get me some bunny pyjamas and sponge bob socks from aust! wheeeeee! oh la la.

2006-12-06T01:39:00.000+08:00

friends with benefits. hmm. ponder ponder.

this blog thing is getting weirder by the day. complex. gah. annoying. has a mind of its own. much of afraid. i cant pick my favourite font. yes. what has the world become to? i've completed my seventh series of One Tree Hill, and filled with anguish, disturbance, a little peevish you might say. I so want Brooke and Lucas to get back together! gah. why oh why.

whooo pheee dooo! i have holidays till february and getting off december is already driving me bonkers. what else is there to do? i do not want to work, neither lose weight by exercising, non-interest in mopping at shopping centres which are boring me. i have indeed been engaging myself to housework. like mopping the floor, clearing my room(yes.. actually cleaning and throwing stuff away). ha ha. such niceness. seriously! killing me. killing! gah.

2006-12-05T18:05:00.000+08:00

2006-12-02T22:59:00.000+08:00

yellow mellow! i often wonder my mandarin is pretty trashy although i speak merely pretty not so much at home (at least. there is 20 percent). i still HAVE to see the subtitles when i watch chinese shows. gah. i mean, comparison with those who are totally clueless. im pretty much not THAT bad. still horrible till my mandarin is being laughed by shampoo boys who are english poda. hah.

this is pretty much an old story la. but am currently talking about this with trace. since im in a dolly happy mood. i shall blog about it. we were in starbucks in SS15 (opposite INTI), with julie boy, sam the wham, chels, trace and myself. i saw this girl walking in. and darn, she was super hot. i mean, really really hot. i told them and all heads turn, knowing them. 'waaah... hot wehhh'. she was really tall, kinda tan looking, merely wearing tees and jeans, with quite a long black hair. gothic like, hot. totally. she sat near to us, then her phone rang.

'shingshongshingshong sher bu sher sher bu sher la la la.. chingshong la la... ' she talked so fast and fluent. we were kinda silent for a long time. staring at each other. later she took out a cigaratte and puffed away. trace coughed(on purpose) and said, 'potong stim' very loudly. we burst into fits of laughter.

oh. very. well.

i love the fray! smiles cheesily*

2006-12-01T00:29:00.000+08:00

TA-DA! a round of applause to Chan Pei San! clapclapclap! as you have noticed. she has revolutionise my blog. with bigger box, to enable BLIND people to see my posts (i'm not sarcastic okay?love you. te he), inserted my beautifool chatter box... and she photoshop-ed this layout. hmmm. to me, its a miracle. and she's an experty in this. clapclap again. wheeee! toh cheh toh cheh.

this holiday is gonna send me CRAZY. i need to go Vivo City in Spore now now NOW. on the lighter note, i've gained two kgs. with the cabinet stocked up with much ice cream, jack and jill potato chips, skittles, m&ms and lots of Chillis and TGIF. i will be very very sexay soon..

this is the so called short term cute guy in college. there you go roxanna seah. he he. he's much cuter real life. seriously. and half-irish too.

2006-11-30T19:57:00.000+08:00

i have got myself the emilythestrange fringe at OU today. woo phee doo. i find myself looking rather weird. i have discovered that my left ankle is swollen. and i cant do the 360 degrees turn. i think its a lil sprained. this is just superb. brilliant.

this new blog layout is killing me-rather quickly. gaaaah! chan pei san is photoshopping the layout now. here that. photoshop the layout. gaaahh. i wasnt aware of such existance.

2006-11-28T23:23:00.000+08:00

hum dee dee hum. i fell on my knees. not deliberately. not in altar call, mind you. i pok-kai-ed. it happened when i so semangatly joined mum for her evening run at Taman Rakyat, due to my boredness being locked up at home. i was walking happily down a slope. plaik! i fell on my knees. well, my whole body fell flat. my boobies were like squashed or something, my hands were bruised. but the worse, was my kness. my poor knees! both my kness was bleeding so much. passer-bys especially kids were freaked out. heh heh. cheap thrill. mothers, knowing my mum.. was like.. pain or nott? (this is what you get when you're the only child). it was nothing much to fuss about. but it did hurt like crap. gaahhhh... my knee will have horrible scars for eternity!!! growwl...

i always thought i was pretty much a person with no symphathy. no another word, emphathy. i do not. repeat. do not. put myself in other people's shoes when it comes to this comfort zone of mine. (excluding the whole feelings... and hurting people kinda drama-which i'm pretty good at understanding. heh) . so i see old people selling fruits when youre enjoying your pan mee. i really really really really really have a soft heart for them. not those, stupid young frods asking you to donate to some charity thing (i feel like slapping them) or china woman selling nonsenstical bell-ringing wu-liau thingy.. but those, old mans selling fruits, or kuihs. it really softens my heart. my mother will say no all the way. knowing her. but i admire those who at least-attempt to work it out. i feel soaked up sad inside. really. i do wanna help them somehow. for now, all i can do is pray i suppose. the street beggars and dependant on the situations to get my symphathy. some are really just plain lazy. some are really what you call by, you should be fortunate with the ungrateful life you're having.

my holiday so far has been a total waste. can uni start soon? i'm gonna reach a stage of suicidal-ness pretty soon. i've been moping around the house, or going out shopping (which is a no-no, cause i have to save all the crap money to go spore..., which shopping in msia has essentially became a bore).

on the other hand, i want emilystrange fringe hair do! bahhh....

2006-11-27T00:04:00.000+08:00

mengikut roxanne and lipeng. my fonts are too small. i'll say. they're blind. blind blind blind. i have returned from a tiring day. yesterday i had a nap marathon of four hours. so last night, i had tossing and turning marathon which left me superbly sleepy today. me and roxanna ( ha ha ) went to OU today and watched Step Up. i like dancy dancy movies and i thought it was okaaayy laa... then we jalan here and there. i was super sleepy and zombie like i tell you. with my nerdy glasses and uncombed hair. yes, you can imagine..

i only bought earring while roxanne managed to get jeans. i regretted i didnt buy that stupid zara top. sheesh. me and my super duper attitude yang amat annoying. gaah. we went straight to lipeng's, with a purchase of cake from bread story. went for Klang Seafood in Pandamaran. See ah Mah ffk us, but we had joyous time eating crabsss. heh heh heh. me like =) we went back to lipengs and played some game. it was some mafia thing. i was kinda blurred out since i havent played, sortof got the hang of it. its lots of fun. i enjoyed to company. and truly miss my secondary times...

im sceptical about my uni entry. seriously. seriously. i know the requirement is not like 90 TER or anything but hellloo? do i look brainy and rajinted or consistent for that matter? yes, you can tell. so im really praying hard.

janice is leaving to aussie this tuesday. booo hoooo* leaving us all behind. this is just the beginning of her ending in Malaysia. all the bestttiee!

2006-11-25T13:30:00.000+08:00

class photo

2006-11-25T00:19:00.000+08:00

i'm so sleepie. wanna know why? i have done nada other than waking up late, watching tv nont eating breakfast but potato chips and vanilla coke which is stocked up nicely. napping for four hours straight. eat eat eat. nap at night from say eight to ten. watch tv or online. sleep at three plus. its almost the same everyday. piggie piggie. actually i pretty much enjoy it honestly. i've been wanting to laze since i can remember. latest serieses i find nice. the 4400(super nice), desire:table for three(drama, love) and zoe busiek:wildcard(police sorta investigating stuff). not forgetting my fave ANTM.

yup. prom ended on wednesday. it was really funny. me and jolene went to OU to get our hair done in Monsoon-id which costs us rm60. its really silly in my book but we had no choice. i was pretty satisfied with what it turned out to be. exactly what i wanted. i wanted a sorta hair like brooke davis did in one tree hill. where all your hair is pushed to one side, curled. well, we got our make up done in Estee Lauder. which I was pretty satisfied too. other than, my eye brows being shaved off! gah.. my virgin eye brows! now I'm just a typical girl, who gets her brows shaved. i am truly ashamed. tsk tsk tsk. totally uncalled for. and due to the long wait in hair doing, we were late. really really late. i had trouble doodling with my dress. it was pretty open in front, and i had to add double sided tape which created a havoc. i had what you cal a bitch fit in jo's house. sorry to those who had to stand my annoying-ness of screaming and wailing. ha ha.

we arrived at Sunway Lagoon Hotel at eight. which is two hours later. but they havent started anyway. ha ha. malaysians. the guys were sweet enough to get our bags and put them in their room in Pyramid Tower. we sat down and there was suddenly a performance by Mary Ng and gang doing High School Musical skit. ha ha. i know. enough said. overall, people werent bothered what was happening. seriously. deliberately not bothered. every table was busy snapping pictures, or screaming yaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmm seeeeenngggg.... heh heh. prom king and queen was some dont know who. and i had no idea they even gave away best dressed. ha ha. i wasnt listening either. it was pictures pictures pictures. the food was kinda horrible la. but the table beside was empty by only the forth course. wondered where did they all go. ha ha.

they opened the floor for dancing. and it was really a club environment. they put on these crazy lights and you just dance la. i was a little disturbed by the blinding lights (as i'm not used to it). but after that it was kinda fun! i really find people who are not opening up really sad. i mean, its only dancing. its not like sinful or anything. dont know la. i shall say no more. ha ha. i had fun. and its all that matters. boo hooo you.

thank god for no other girl wore my dress. in the afternoon, i saw my dress but in a different colour being displayed. thankfully, no one wore it. i saw four girls wearing the exact dress (from somerset bay). sad case. many thought my dress was some fancy designer wear, but its not la.. its not customed made. luckily it was on a little discount or i wont buy it.. i had so much fun! pics shall be uploaded.

moving on, i just returned from the night concert of United Live. i was at their workshop which i dont think it was reallly fantastically something to brag about. when the band came on stage to talk, people, or more likely i'll say malaysians. ask silly willy embarrasing questions. i was like..kill me please? less elaborated. shakes head* its really a put off.... at seven, the place was really packed with down to small kids to people aged older than my mum. ha ha. thank god i had a ticket okay! if i missed this night, i'll just become sour and whine all month! the music was awesome. really awesome. the flow through every song was great great great! we, i mean, i was partially (i said partially) smart. we went to the sixth floor cause they opened up the other stairs less taken. we dashed like crazie monkeys and flew up. the fifth floor was standing, the sixth was sitting. and i managed to get a really really good spot in the middle front. so it was a great view. pity those who came slightly later, had to sit waaaaaaaay behind. i can sit when my legs were tired, but the lower area had to stand throughout the programme. and i can imagine the sweating and all. yuck. and it was smart (of me) to want to leave earlier before everybody rushes. and a stampede happens and I die. so we stood near the door by the last few songs and dashed out when it ended. typically malaysians. we want more! we want more! helloo... they made it clear that it is not a concert. it is about praising God. alamak. these people. aih. so embarrasing la. then we managed to take the lift and they said the last life. which makes everyone who is leaving. have to take stair. le le le le (sticks out tongue). too bad. la la. i feel so smart suddenly. hah. a rush of egoness.. tra la la la. the music and selection of songs were awesome from the time has come, take it all, from the inside out, one way... they performed almost throughout the two hours. it was great energy that they had. great voice too. good drummer, good techniques. good sound. everything was really good. i really think they're really people of great mind set, and in a way, really being humble. they are much aware and repeating that they are only ordinary people doing God's work. they emphasise that this is about praising God, but not a concert where the glory is theirs. that i truly admire. i love hillsong's concept. and i think this is right. heh heh heh.

my hand are really trashed. and i think i have spelling errors some where along the line. good night everyone.

2006-11-21T09:17:00.000+08:00

I haven't got my bag, heels and accesories. haven't fugured out where to do my silly makeup or hair. gaaahhhh....

never go to singapore when sales havent started. its a deadly sin.

2006-11-17T00:06:00.000+08:00

kev submitted some of muah for his photography project. it was dealing with some colour stuff, ones in grey, the other sepia, the other other is *cantrememberwhatcolourhewasyakkingabout*. I really liked it alot.

and I feel this way too. boy, do I look skinny in this one. heh heh. happy.

I look like I'm pooing or something. I can't remember what this shot is called. sorry kevvy.

aha! my all time favourite. this one, my friends, was taken in 2004 or was it 2003? I cant remember. back when I was pretty hot with guitars and drums and jengjeng stuff.. I forgot about it CAUSE YOU DIDNT SEND ME THIS PICTURE YOU IDIOT! (it wasnt beer for holy boly people to know.. it was orange julius *roll eye*)

isn't it the nicest? its not included in the photo shots. ga ha.

since trace has been bugging me like some crazy monkey. I shall spill the beans. I got a call one fine night from Fly FM(last night). blurry as I can be as usual. so it Bezzale and Jules (noideahowtospelltheirnames).

Faye : Hello?

Them : Hi.. we're da and da from Fly Fm. do you know why we're calling you?

Faye: err... I've won a million bucks?

Them : oh no no... you're on Flirty at ten thirty

Faye : whhhaatt? whatss thhatt?

Them : laughs* someone sent in an entry on wanting to go on a date. do you have any idea who this is?

Faye : huuuhhh? this is so weird. errr.... no. whose that? (still blur..and so wanting that million bucks. hmph)

Them : well... he is tall, tanned, plays basketball, studies overseas (I was kinda hoping for Chad Michael Murray)

Faye : erm.. dont know la...

Them : he wants you to know he's your best friend and he plays the drums in your band

Faye : OHHHHH..... that idiot ah. I know that idiot! HA HA HA! (very loudly... listeners have an idea of how ganas I am)

Them : so do you wanna go out on a date with him?

Faye : (in my heart... oh no). well.... errrr.... I can hang out but not a date. heh.

Them : well his on the line at the same time and he's listening to you right now.

Faye : still laughing loud

idiot : hello idiot!

Faye : you stupid idiot... ha ha!

Them : okay okay.. no calling people names. you people are real funny. so faye, why dont you wanna go out on a date with him?

Faye : his my good buddy and i know we havent been spending time with each other and all. but im not on dating terms. and idiot knows it TOO. right, dumbo?

idiot : HA HA! nah.. its alright. I have a gf anyway (tahu pun)

Them : okay... well its too bad. (and blah blah... nothing else)

and that idiot is andrew. my bestie since form 1. we've drifted-A LOT. its kinda sad actually. I'll call you up for a drink okay. does your girlfriend know about this? if not, you are getting your ass roasted. i'm telling you. but overall, it caught me by surprise. I didnt even know there were such flirty at ten thirty whatever crap. ha ha. its silly yet hilarious. i would go desperate measures to get my bestie's attention too... if we've drifted. so I really appreciated it... it went through some senses. I'm really sorry...

there you go trace. now, give me my ice cream as you promised or i'll smack you

2006-11-15T16:51:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!! screaaaammmsss**

sometimes I question myself if what I'm doing is relevant to my heart. I follow my head more than my heart. as usual, I do not reveal much of anything on this blog. so too bad.

on the other hand, I'm really interested in doing Performing Arts in LimKokWing. mum thinks its cool too... as usual, I will follow my head. not my heart. its the least thing I'm bothered right now.

I'm all pumped up for prom now! yeay yeay yeay!!! I am so gonna miss my cute guy! (cries..*). I didn't even get to see him today (last day at Taylors)... so depressing! booo hooo* of all people I saw his stupid girlfriend.. gah. blek. I'm not the only one who thinks she not hot. bah. gah. la. roxy! I cant show it to you anymore. and I'm not a shopaholic. how dare you. calling me nasty names. ha ha ha..

I'm gonna miss janice chye zhen cheng! boo hoo hoo.... she's going off to aussie already... (doing the faye lips thing). boooo hooo*

I went home straight after college today. I feel pathetic cause I'm so supposed to go pyramid with classies. have to clean the house pulak... ish. geramnya.

scoop of the day : Faye is VERY gorgeous! ohhh wheeeeeeeeeeeee! (hyper mode)

Hurt By Christina Aguilera (vid as seen beside)

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face

You told me how proud you were, but I walked away

If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms

I would take the pain away

Thank you for all you've done

Forgive all your mistakes

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To hear your voice again

Sometimes I wanna call you

But I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit

Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss

And it's so hard to say goodbye

When it comes to this,

Would you tell me I was wrong?

Would you help me understand?

Are you looking down upon me?

Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To have just one more chance

To look into your eyes

And see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself

If I had just one more day

I would tell you how much that I've missed you

Since you've been away

it's dangerous

It's so out of line

To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

2006-11-14T23:23:00.000+08:00

gaaahhh! streamyzx is a lousy frod. I've been trying to connect for the last century and it finally decided to kick off! sheezzh. let me fill you in with my very superbly lackadasical attitude. I went out for a movie after Bio yesterday. yes... I am so prepared for Chemistry paper tomorrow... still have time to watch movie. (pats my own back). very good faye.. very good. ha ha.

I watched this new movie called Accepted. bout this guy creating his own college and all.. the movie's alright. I DESPERATELY in need of foosing! it has been like what? a week since I foosed? I'm gonna drop dead and die if I don't foos.. screams*

tomorrow's my last paper for SAM! laughs sneakily** freedom awaits me...

do not talk to me about United Live's night. DO NOT. I repeat DO NOT. if there's anyone with an extra ticket, I am begging. deliberately BEGGING you to sell it to me (throwing fits here....).

2006-11-10T11:30:00.000+08:00

I have Limewire!! finally found out how to download songs (thank you for the smirk on your face). thanks to praaviiithaa! yeay yeay yeay yeay yeay yeay!

please download Christina Aguilera's Hurt.

oh..and I love my very own anonymous.

and I'm starting to doubt. if someone really really really really really wears the same dress as me in Corroboree, I shall tell myself how much I like the dress and I look much better than the other. bah.

2006-11-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

physics and english down! no more physics for the rest of my donkey life! wheeeee! we all went foosing and pooling after exams to let loose, before out maths this thursday. I managed to catch the longest nap after centuries! kaa poow!

its one crazy day today. I had so many what you say by arguements. first, in the morning. then, the silent war in the car, thanks to somebody. then, at home... one tiring day to get through. glad its over now.. its a new dayy!

my cute guy is half-irish!(do I sound obssesed enough?) I repeat... he is half-irish! even my mum who hasn't met him thinks he's hot. Kavi and I were in cafeteria today, and I finally heard him swearing.. yup. he swears. at least he uses proper ones if you fill me... and I've shown my unhappiness about my hotness against his girlfriend, which is very contradicting looking at her petite size and 'so-called-cuteness' which much as you can see. I lack. oh. very. well. ha ha!

after ten months, most of my classmates have decided to unleash their wild side. usually only jo, V, and me are pretty much making a fool out of ourselves. I'm glad to see kien seng and adrian brave enough to shake hips in public. its an acheivement. as for certain people, their lies are getting much much better. as for me, I have no idea what I have done in SAM besides being stalked by people who do not reveal themselves in text messages, being talked about in stinky toilets while I pee, find out my cute guys name after ten months, learn that luke watches porno every month, and becoming a photo taking expert. ha ha.

thats all for now. if I blog tomorrow, please smack me. love.

2006-11-06T07:27:00.000+08:00

Finals starts today. I am panicky plus relieved plus AHHHHHHH!!!!! I tried to sleep well last night (currently 645am) but I couldn't. My brains were running around... I am cranking up! I look like some zombie from Planet Ape!

Father God! Help! I'm not asking too much, but just above the sufficient requirement to get into Monash! gaaaahhhh!

2006-11-03T23:10:00.000+08:00

I've got TICKETS to UNITED LIVE's NIGHT CONCERT!!!!!!

(claps her hands like a monkey!)

2006-11-03T14:43:00.000+08:00

A part of G16.. according to Mr Gay

Sexy-licious V

Booty-licious Lady Faye

"D"-licious Jo

Pweetie-licious Anne

Lukey aka Mr.GaY

Freestyler Choy

HipSS (hip shaker SENG)

Sean aka pimp dad-E aka RoBo-Fooser

Joe aka Hardo Gay

Daniel aka Pweetie Boy

Wai Yip aka LLC (lansi leng chai)

Scientific Testimonials... (more to come)

the rate at which you throw a frisbee is enough to release the frisbee with such high kinetic energy that the work done to get the frisbee across to your partner is more than the work done for you to move your hips like a horny gorilla. The work done to move your hips can be calculated using this formula K = qh (whereby h is the degree of gorilla horniness that you are reciding at , at that point in time) and the amount of glucose you burn is enough to cause your hips to lack oxygen ,hence amounting in terms of anaerobic respiration which leads to lactic acid buildup.. (see,thats why you get tired after a minute or two of moving your hips like a horny gorilla)..in the end you just SHAKE YOUR HIPS MORE (say it miss tan's style) and put on a smile with a radius of 2 milimetres (KIEN SENG)

Did u noe that the number of times u scream a day can be modelled using the logistic function, where it becomes constant after a while because u ran out of breath. Then, the energy that fuels ur screams and laughter is supplied by ATP, which is the source for immediate energy. then the frequency ur scream and laugh can be found by using the speed of light divided by the speed of sound( dunno whether if this is correct of not) finally, the amount of energy given out when u scream is equivalent to 5000 neutralising reactions between acid and bases... (KAVITHA)

must understand that lab coats are only for specific ppl. just like an atom absorbing a specific photon......also if u wear ur lab coat and goggles....the amount of energy u can release due to the cuteness can be calculated using E=mc squared, where the amount of energy reeased is in the Mev range. then, guys will be lining up to ask you to dance with them just like the addition reaction of many monomers, forming a long polymer chain...the amount of guys lining up can be shown using the logistic function, where eventually the amount becomes constant. and finally u must realise that the reason why i replied is due to the actions of hormones which are long lasting, general in effect, travels in the bloodstream and are produced in the endocrind gland (LI ANNE)

Firstly, the rate of you going out to shop can be found by differentiating the function of the number of times u shop a year, and the maximum can be found by equalling the differentiation to zero. then, the reason why sometimes you have the craving to shop is due to the action of hormones.....the shopping hormone actually (which i think does not exist) Then using the horizontal component can be found when you chuck your old shirts away as they travel in a projectile motion...Finally, the plastic bag used to put your newly bought shirts are thermoplastics...which soften when heated and are suited to recycling...they are not however, biodegradeble... (ME)

2006-11-02T14:10:00.000+08:00

while me and kavi were foosing. I saw my cute guy foosing too! I was thinking, this is gonna be the last few time I see him and he doesn't know I think he's cute! ha ha! by the way, his stupid name is not Ben okay! people tell me wrong thing. he's name is Aston. it seems. Aston Robertson (surname yet to be confirmed). and I don't even know anything about him, so called cute guy for one year. I'm a failure!

I can't wait for exams to be over! picking up my altered dress tomorrow!! te he he... I DONT HAVE TICKETS TO UNITED LIVE NIGHT CONCERT! I'm gonna smack the idiot that was supposed to get the tickets... GAAAHHHHH! maybe its not that bad since I'm australia-ing in two years time! boooooo!!! get a stadium laaa.... great oh great.

my cute guy is really cuttee! I'm telling you... oh very well. such infatuation... sigh.

I received an email from Dawn. she's going to complain to big boss Benjamin about Gap's cruelty against Chinese. ha ha..

2006-10-30T17:55:00.000+08:00

thought of the day

kavitha watches Bold and Beautiful, I watch Bold and Beautiful, Roxanne watches Bold and Beautiful. and its a nice series too.

get this, he washes his own clothes. mends his own clothes. sews his own halloween costume. irons clothes. pays house bills. clean his own room, he is super tidy. and scared of cockroaches. life is very unpredictable.

hmm..exams is in seven days time. janice is leaving end of this month. and I am going to be an undergrad next year! helloo... I'm going to UNI already..

first visit to ADP library today. no guys that looked like Chad. sad sad..

still can't find tops that are off shouldered long sleeved thats covering half the upper body (with me wearing a spag inside.duh.whatwereyouthinking). stupid country.

if only you knew... how it was like to get burnt by oil just by frying eggs (sheesh me)

if only you knew... how desperate I am to go shopping in australia

if only you knew... the urgency I have to dance again. teacher back in states. sigh.

if only you knew... how I miss playing futsal with silly running chickens.

if only you knew... what is going around my head. if only.

2006-10-26T22:43:00.000+08:00

ka-pow!ka-pow! te he he. greetings greetings. JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE is a great movie, in my opinion. I had to queue the never ending queue in mid valley to watch this show. firstly, janice told me it wasnt worth it to watch at the cinema. but I think its a good movie. I expected it to be a normal kinda show. but I liked the story line here and there. its pretty funny too.. its nice to have the whole cinema laughing at the same thing, as you know, some who go movies just dont get it... of which, can't understand the command of english? oh very well. who am i to judge?

Finals is in less than two weeks and my pimples are not out. is this a sigh that Im not having stress? gahh.. I need stress!! I'm worried of not being worried!! gahhhh... anyway, UNITED LIVE is coming to town! can you believe it? and I am so totally going!!!

2006-10-25T14:37:00.000+08:00

THESE ARE THE HOLES ON DRESSES I WAS TALKING ABOUT! WHY DOES THIS UNCIVILISED NO-TASTE KAMPUNG COUNTRY HAVE NO SUCH OF THESE!!! SCREAMM! now I have to settle on something not-as-nice-as-this. (faye sulks like a little girl)

2006-10-23T23:18:00.000+08:00

she is **. she is wearing super padded water bra whatever you call it.. she's some mix something laa.. and she's plumpish okay. like waist size 30? I don't think even my ass is that big. sheesh. pissed-dyfied.

2006-10-21T22:16:00.000+08:00

da ha. lots to fill you blogdearies.. my two day marathon of shopping has been fruitful! finally got my dress! not showing any preview till the actual day.. yesterday, I went down to KL to hunt. I tried this gorgeos dress from a designer called calvin tho. my goodness... it looked nice on me okay! it was long blue satin dress with a very bare back... as usual, it would cost me 1600. great oh great... I had four heavy meals yesterday... bloated.

today I went to OU. straight up-10 hours. watched WTC-AGAIN. mum la... wanted to watch. so I had to watch it-again. there were lots and lots of people.. I felt kinda guilty being out for two long days... gaaahh.. at least, the dress is settled. btw, my dress is from Warehouse=) in case you're wondering. I pray and pray and pray no one would have gotten the same dress... please please pleaseeee... (fingers crossed). I met yvonne. this time I didn't shout her name. I just helllo dengan politely.

I AM SUPER PISSED WITH RACISM! I was called in to do Gap today actually! Gap okay! its the biggest one for me... when I got there, the stupid manager said..sorry we cant slot you in cause we need TALLER girls. (fine..you trying to say I'm short). you're replaced by * and **. * was acceptable la. ah moh girl-taller than me. but **? she was a shorter ah moh than me okay! shorter! like half head shoorter! and she had to wear size 30 for her jeans, and she's only small A cup la wei! (other A cuppers-dont be offended k). I was friggin pissed la obviously! this is clear cut of colour okay! then I realised-actually all of them were ah mohs.. no wonder la!!! stupid idiot... I could have easily got that cash, but nooo.... they prefer to pick models from other countries. I am so annoyed by the fact that they always put the ah moh girls first.. its like every casting you have to fight with them! i am not against them, but honestly we're in Msia, i think we should at least use OUR OWN people. this people are too captured by the ah moh ah moh... its really pathetic. and when it comes to make up, wah...this people really fuss all around the ah mohs... the chinese treated like sampah... well, the bitter truth about life starts noww...

what I gave Kavi for her birthday. giggles...

threw her a surprise party at pizza hut.. such fun.

2006-10-17T22:29:00.000+08:00

black white

not too decent

LUKE GAVE BIRTH TO SEAN! JOY!

this picture is funny!

we shall end it with the superbly ever sweet me! da ha.

2006-10-14T22:36:00.000+08:00

I don't do this horoscope thing much but I copied it from lady Roxanne and read it. I was amazed! it totally read me like a paper! this thing is approx 97% accurate! seriously! but setting a good example, cough. I once again clarify that these stuff is blasphemy. erm.. heh.

VIRGO WOMAN

She will be similar to Leo woman in appearance.

A slim woman who walks with confident and proud. (sort of)

She has an egg shape facial structure, high and round forehead. (not really? egg faced?)

She likes to look straight as if she is searching.

She is not a pretentious type and will always say what she thinks. (correcto!)

You will see Virgo woman walks fast. (HA HA! SO TRUE OKAY)

She will try her best to be perfect, to look perfect and to feel perfect even though there is no such perfection.

She is very delicate of what and how she dress. (yup yup..nods head)

She is bright and easily despair with obstacles.

She likes smart guy who will be compatible with her, so if you are a rich dumb guy, you can forget about her right now. (not exactly true..I prefer dumber guys-SERIOUSLY-some philosophy behind it)

She is not a very possessive or jealous person for she expect respect from her love one.

She does not like a part time lover, or a temporary mate.

If she finds her dream man, she will not go away.

If she does not like you, she will always keep a certain distant. (AHA! coorect!)

Act proper and appropriate is her discipline. (NO..miss behavin is good)

She does not like and can not stand bad languages, cursing words or phrase.

She likes a gentleman who open the doors for her. (who doesn't?)

She wants to feel protected and when a man taking care of her, she will feel like a complete woman.

She memorizes everything about other people and about herself very well.

She can really keep secret, you can trust her on this. (sure do..wink)

She likes a refreshing and a mild scent. (yeah yeah!)

She is very delicate in maintaining her beauty, so you could see she is seriously picking soap which match and most suit her skin. Do not comments her on this very picky habits, it is her happiness in working full times as a self beautifier. (YES! this thing is such a psychic!)

She is not an innocent angel for sometimes she can be as tough as steel. (stubborn? yeah..thats who I am)

Even she easily despair, she is not the type to cry over it. (okay..this virgo thing is starting to freak me out.it is SO ME!) scream!

She is a shy type, so making speech in front of the room can make her nervous even she walks and talks confidently. (YESSS!)

She only search for true love , not just any love. Her love is an ideal one.

She likes to think no one is neater and as effective as her, which can irritate you sometimes for there is no such thing. (ha ha)

She likes sweet talk,

but she can slip and say something unpredictable and unbearable to you too. (yeap...unpredictable)

When she stops getting mad, she will totally forget what she just said and be an angel again.

If you have a date with her , you'd better be there on time. (chaos the mouse you!!!!)

Flowers and sweet word can calm her down.

If you want to say sorry , make it brief and straight forward.

Do not drag your apologetic words into a long making it up events, it could lead you to another world war.

She likes her man to dress nice and clean.

She is good in details especially with money.

Do not make she thinks that she is a clown or funny.

In the beginning of knowing her, please try not to glance at other pretty woman so much. (tahu pun)

Early period of dating her, try not to hold her so much in public, it would not be a proper thing to do. (whatt? ha ha. this is funny)

She loves books, stage play and music and likes to criticize about them too. (yess..precisely what I like! and so what I critise)

Criticism woman is her icon including big and small things in life starting from your hair, your dress , and the way you talk.

If you are in love with her, be as almost perfect as your can. (nah... just be yourself =) )

BMW Art Cars In KLCC-AFTER COLLEGE

coolio banga!

EARLIER THAT MORNING...

thats my 'look transexual' bio teacher

syok sendiri-ing (I wasn't doing my work-don't be deceived)

mwah!

BACK TO KLCC PICS-ha ha!

simple dress. sigh... too simple for prom (didn't buy).. I liked it a lot.

ONE U...

from KLCC to OU

LATER THAT NIGHT...BBQ PARTY

its cupcakes! such sweetness isn't it? its really beautiful

sorry for the blurry night photos. many pics were not uploaded due to my pesky camera phone. growl.. not forgetting, I watched World Trade Center! can't believe I cried okay! so emo la.. heh heh. I think its a real touching and emphatic movie. more than two thousand people died on Sept 11th. most of them are firemen and policemen, trying to save people. I prayed for the lost ones that night. I believe they are certainly at a better place now..

Good night everyone...

2006-10-12T17:15:00.001+08:00

Damn Fast Damn Furious : Subang Drift (pt 2 of 2)

episod two!

2006-10-12T17:15:00.000+08:00

Damn Fast Damn Furious : Subang Drift (pt 1 of 2)

ha ha ha!! must watch! by people from S8

2006-10-11T22:37:00.000+08:00

my latest passion after obtaining streamyx. stalking people on blogs and friendster. finally get to see pics uploading really quick! geez. some people are REALLY REALLY interesting. I seriously find some people can talk just about anything in their blog. Jamie posts about her kinky panties, Tracie talks about her dog more than herself, ah Yeow only post a lot of pictures and his emo look, kevin posts about music and cars, and I. have no idea what I ramble about..

I've been thinking a lot lately. about what I want to do in life? what kindof busy life am I leading? does it serve an aim? a destiny? what if i just give up everything, and start all over again. what would I miss? would I regret? to take the road less taken? its all a gamble. its all in a state of my mind right now. there's two roads diverging now. very very different ones. which should I pick?

2006-10-09T21:50:00.000+08:00

The Banquet! the mandarin movie with zhang ziyi. whoever said daniel wu is good looking? I deeply-do not agree. other than his 'pan yau ying face', I don't think he's that amazing. sorry girls :) somehow, the movie was draggy and the cinema was superbly cold. not a good review I would give..

Move along, tomorrow is a holi-holiday! I'm so tempted to engross myself in the new Mitch Albom book i just got.. sadly, I have to hold back this lust I have. te he he.. I NEED TO STUDY!! LORD, please help this little lost girl! I am in desperate of a prom dress which requires me to do absolutely nothing but a superb dress. currently, doing nada-nothing about it.. I am currently very fetish about tops with really big off shoulders. like you throw a spagetti top and then wear this huge half body long sleeve with an off shoulder. don't imagine the lala one please. ha ha. faye is also into retro earrings and hair bands! (I realise hair bands and these earrings are really expensive sometimes)

Cat Whiskers has finally opened at SS15! ha ha ha back at you yvonne! I haven't been there yet but goona check it out with fellow hommies I guess. yee ha.

When was the last time you heard me on drums? I was watching the 2003 youth camp and its so sad that I'm rusty-fied already... I promise myself that after SAM, I'll do something about it.

2006-10-06T20:42:00.000+08:00

trials are over. now the big deal is approaching. I'm very intimidated because I did very badly for trials. nothing specific intended to elaborate. on another note, the pictures were taken yesterday. we got inspired by America's Next Top Model, previous season. eva with the spider make over.

I finally bought the top I was talking about in forever 21. its the light brown top I posted. luckily it was still there when I came back! pheww!

Please listen to my bloggie's song. its from Jerry McGuire movie. a must watch movie. outs...

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I am traumatised? or spooked? kinda find it hilarious now that I think back. thanks to idiot denial la. scare me like crap. anyway, went home with janice today. so her mum dropped me off somewhere near her place. have to walk back to my place. its not that far, neither that near. but I was walking like a thunder bird. very very scared okay. I heard a bike sound. I was like...no. I turned and saw two malay guys staring at me. I was SO SO SO petrified. and then they turned into like a U turn type of road just near my place. I ran like MAD!!! I was so scared they were making some U turn. to add fun, I forgot to bring my keys. i climbed my house in I think 2 miliseconds... ha ha ha. (we have a spare key somewhere anyway). but all was okay... it was scary yet funny. giggles.

I went to Cats Whiskers for the first time yesterday. I was dissapointed, maybe I expected more. end up buying a pants from there instead. I met a tailor and he wants four hundred bucks for a custom made dress that I want. thats perposterous. so far, all sales personal thinks I'm weird by asking them whether they have holes near the tummy in any dresses..they usually reply we dont sell dresses with holes. malaysia malaysia. tsk tsk tsk.

on another note, I'm touched that janice has actually grown what you call by sensitivity. roxy, if you're reading this, we usually find janice kind of expressionless and hard to relate to when it came to problems, girlie stuff and all but today, I was surprisingly astonished. anyway, janice..you've been a great friend. love you heapsies..

2006-10-03T23:05:00.000+08:00

we had break at pizza hut today...

pravitha and me

me and jojo jolene

couldn't really decide which picture to choose. my hands look retarded (embarrasing)

and the two first-class hommies who have ~~fits~~ while laughing... hmmmm....

2006-10-03T22:39:00.000+08:00

almost-sort-of the dress i want for prom

and yes. JIMMY CHOO. who can resist?

another nice dress by marc jacobs. price is unbearable.

2006-10-02T22:40:00.000+08:00

what can I say? I cried today. after a while. I feel helpless and frustrated. thanks to my mum who was there for me. she says..no matter what happens, remember that I love you. I thought I could hold it back, but after talking to her. it streamed down like nobody's business. it needed to come out anyway, or I'll just explode like a volcano. there's nothing to say much but dissapointment. I caught my composure and washed my face like nothing happened. and its faye again.. life is full of sucking up, no doubt. and this life, is getting an insey weeney annoying.

not to worry, I'm much better now. I need retail therapy...

2006-09-30T13:37:00.000+08:00

One day a mom was driving her daughter around to run some errands for her daughters birthday party.

The little girls grandma could not make the party so she gave her birthday card to her mom and told her that she put a $100 bill in the card, but for her to keep it a surprise until the little girl opened it at her birthday party later that night.

On the way home the little girls mom wanted to stop in the drive through and pick up something to eat for her and her daughter because the birthday party was a few hours away.

The mom had no cash and asked her daughter for the $10 that she gave to her for her allowance that morning.

The mom told her daughter that she would give it back as soon as she got home.

The little girl did not want to give the money up because $10 was all she had at the moment, and it seemed like a lot to her.

The mom knew that her daughter had a birthday card with $100 waiting for her when she got home, and she was going to give her the $10 back, but the little girl couldnt see beyond what was in front of her at the moment.

The girl said she wasnt hungry and was saving up for her birthday cake.

She made every excuse to not let go of what was in her hand.

The mom tried to convince her daughter that if she gave up what was in her hand that she would get it back. The daughter reluctantly gave her mom the $10.

When they got home the daughter opened her birthday card and saw her $100 from her grandma and was pumped to get back her $10 plus the extra $100.

The moral of this story is that we tend to hold tightly on to things that are right in front of us, our $10 bill could be a job, relationship, dream..others..

God promises that if we give up the things hes asking us to give up that we will get 10 fold in return.

However God can not act until we release whats in our hand (whatever that may be in your life at the moment) and as soon as we do, he will unlock bigger and better things, way more than we could ever imagine. (Ephesians 3:20)

I was pumped after reading it during devotion and thought id share it....life happens and things come up..sometimes we think that what we are holding on to in life is as good as it will get, but when you release it to God and give up your plans...your ideas..and your way of how "life" should go...when we give up control and stop trying to do Gods job, thats when hes able to move in our lives...and thats when we'll see his plan and his will done in our life..after all Hes God and knows whats best and what will work and what will not..so why not do it his way....in the end you'll see that it was worth it..but you dont get to see the outcome until you choose to take that step and give up whats in your hand.

2006-09-29T15:37:00.000+08:00

gah... i take those words back. thanks to adam for borrowing me the Grey's Anatomy. I'm hooked. I think it has a really good plot to keep you watching and watching. I have lost with me and tons of south park thanks to YOU! heh heh (thanks for chicken rice and siu mai..high five).

this weekend is a break for me. but next week, I must kick off my engine again. honestly, i realise than my trials is a good start for me to realise I'm not prepared for my finals. I really really need to buck up. at first, I was very keen on doing so since mai chee was helping me. knowing she's like super efficient and know everything or anything. soon after that, she was really engrossed in boyfriend-ing and leaving me all alone. a total turn off I tell you. I mean, TWICE she left my stuff in the library and went home. thankfully no one took my new phone and 400 bucks calculator. I was kinda pissed at her attitude la.

I'm staying home today. cause I have no transport and insufficient money. I hate being poor. I have no idea why my mum is so excited about my first prom. she wants to bring me to singapore to buy my prom dress. I was like... ma, are you down with fever or something? she's usually not that enthusiastic. shockingly for faye, I still think its not necessary. I don't care if my dress is simple-just as long as no other girl where the same thing as me. besides, its silly to spend money on something you're gonna wear once. don't you think? i go naked is the best solution. yee ha. gah...

p/s = excited to see what's janice is gonna wear? I'll laugh my head off seeing her in a beau-ti-full dress.... heh heh. don't be decived. she might be the belle of the ball. heh heh.

2006-09-29T00:46:00.000+08:00

physics presentation day one

physics presentation day two (very bored people)

its lena, kavi, jolene and me

toilet time!

barbeque plaza for my birthday last month

janice was a little horny, I was a little too kissy

animal kingdom. (now I look a little disturbing)

smiley!

in such a deep thought... hmm....

my first time bowling!

retarted duos.

chopstick fiesta!

marie as the dictator

super sweet smile

oh...worship me..

all of us

yunn min's farewell party. seven people in lyn's car. janice and kshin missing in photo.

bored and very bored of studying

taylor's library. te he.

2006-09-28T19:44:00.000+08:00

the day kicked off with my sillyness. or carelessness. whatever you wanna put it into. firstly, i have to wake up by 530am cause exam starts early. I was super blurry-sleepy. (duh). so when I reached there, I climbed the stairts to go to MPHall. Iplaced my bag on the stage, and walked down. yawning away, I was looking for my class. I look here and there...look look look. I started to PANIC. I was like..oh gosh. where's my class?!! where's my exam? I asked the idiot woman teacher she don't know. thankfully, lena answered her phone. phew...I ran like some crazy pontianak I tell you... tsk tsk tsk.

secondly, I reached there. relieved and all. I took out my formula sheet. and I BROUGHT THE WRONG ONE!!! ahhh... I nearly went bonkers I tell you! most of my statistics to find sampling error wasn't there. the first principle formula wasn't there either! dont know how many marks I lost. I was kinda upset with my carelessness. i did the two sheets but left it at home. clap clap clap...

day at college ended. trials has finished! yeay yeay yeay. I went to OU and splurged at french connection! mua ha ha ha ha ha. finally, the thirst for shopping is fulfilled. then, when I went forever21. there was this sleveless top that had really nice black flowery butterfly type of pattern. it was really really nice! but, no more money... growl. total turn off.

day got better by eating Chilli's. I had a flame sizzling ribeye. all my worries faded away.... I was so hungry during exam I nearly DIED! ha ha ha. after that, I watched Devil Wears Prada. okay..those who does not acknowledge marc jacobs products. my saliva was super drooling at the sight of the products... gah.. why malaysia's one so limited? gah...

I just had steamboat for dinner. so a better half of the day saved the crisis of the morning. oh and so one stated his surprise that I can speak mandarin. I was so SO underestimated okay! not to mention pissed too. he went like...'huh? i didn't know you know how to speak chinese la..'. do I have the look of cannot speak mandarin? hello? my mandarin is better than some english edu people okay. don't dictate me. gah. shoo.

2006-09-24T20:00:00.000+08:00

ello.. my computer is back in action. last night was min min's farewell party. felt that I didn't do much bonding to her. one thing for sure, all these meetings make me wanna get back to school. I look so haggard now, I think its the weird timetable of sleep I'm having. I'm having stress too okay. if faye has stress, the world is coming to its ends right? yup..maybe it is. the problem is this stress level is still not making me any much more worried, or hardworking. just pressurised. I miss shopping! ahhhh... I miss convent CF! ahhhh.... I miss laughing my head off! ahhhh.....

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told

Before we get too old

Show me a garden that's bursting into life

2006-09-20T09:48:00.000+08:00

and this describes how I feel. trapped, suffocation, perplexed, dark but strength, courage to make my way up.

and another picture of randomness. (photo-ed and stolen from luke's blog)

2006-09-20T09:11:00.000+08:00

I'm deprived! my computer has virus and spyware (like I know what's that?!). just one night of streamyx and my computer kahputted. what has the world come to? i think it was the idiot website I went videocodes4u.com. came out with tons of pop up ads. this is crazy! not to mention, mum is kinda pissed at the fact that the one month pc is runied by mua. what to do. I have such talent. gah.

I feel a sore throat coming up.. anyway, min min and li yen is leaving for russia! ahhhh! so sad la.. might not meet them for years or for eternity? gah... just hope that someone I don't favour doesn't come this saturday for their party? please please please.. cross fingers.. moving along, I have been staying back in college for two days straight, and deprived of afternoon naps. growl. trials start this friday btw! screams*

2006-09-15T11:56:00.000+08:00

Marble Cheese just for me!!

la la la. me so happy!

the sweet class of G16 who bought me a cake.

2006-09-15T11:35:00.000+08:00

I am still deeply struggling with this college trials coming up. I'm not coping well doing this idiotic course. firstly, I lack in consistency. and all I ever think about is shopping sleeping and reading more sappy novels. I'm getting more shallow than I thought with this boring life.

I came in college late today cause jasmine's dad woke up late. skipped physics and ate pepper corn cafe with janice and jasmine. later instead of keeping myself occupied with books, I am going to mid valley to continue my quest of retail therapy..

it was a series of unfortunate events for adam yesterday. he locked himself OUT of his car yesterday. and while getting a spare key from his dad, the MPSJ tolled his car away! it was really funny la actually. but he took it in a positive way.. in the end, he had to pay 150 for the toll thing and get scolding at the same time. I took pity and decided to borrow him my precious Arctic Monkeys CD. I'm nice after all.. te he.

I shall STOP buying anymore novels and START reading my text books. help me God!!!

GUYS MAKE GREAT ACCESSORIES is what my shirt says today! don't you agree with me?

2006-09-12T15:18:00.000+08:00

Greetings my fellow faithful readers. Can someone seriously help me with this bluetoothing pictures into the computer dilemma? I’m still very far behind all these technology. I have just finished a novel on ‘How To Kill Your Husband including all household items’. Trust me. Not too appropriate for young adolescents like muah and you. More for my mum era. They start talking about losing orgasms and deteriorating lust, which is a strong dose of disgusting-ness. Ha ha.

I had a comment – again. But this time its not something about being slutty as what stated in my chatter box. This time is someone telling me I can be too sarcastic sometimes. Am I sarcastic? I mean, if you think I am. You must be filled with naiveness. Wait till you meet my mum! Ha ha. The truth is, I do realise I can be sarcastic and a little commentive, only my true friends can get immune to it. Especially people like Janice, I fairly think she’s quite used to my bullying that she doesn’t feel anything at all. Isn’t that right Janice Cheng? (and its ALL still your fault). Giggles.

Maybe I watch too much House on AXN. Honestly, my sarcasm level is very very mild. However, due to circumstances, I shall work on it lo.. Sorry la if you offended ke aper.. I shall improve and improve I shall..

I read a good article on STAR last Sunday. All in all, it teaches on judgement reflects a stale state of mind. Once you start judging, you stop growing. How true is that?

2006-09-08T22:50:00.000+08:00

I have just returned froma good old game of basketball.. managed to sweat like a pig. enjoyed myself though I'm a klutz in it. it was good to channel tantrum in a healthy way... the girls won. I reckon the guys just want to be nice.. they were very gentle and not-so-agressive towards us. which I thought was really sweet of them. had a nice time friends!!

I got tagged-twice. I better do it just in case its a curse or some sort of nonsensity.

AWESOME PEOPLE I WANT TO MEET

Da Vinci

Amy Tan

Nicholas Sparks

Aristotle

Wentworth Miller

CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY

Mandy Moore!!

Princess Diana (I think she's really humble)

GOD! awesome GOD!

THINGS I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT

myself?

nice thai food

a mobile phone

clothes and money

romanticising novels

I WISH I COULD

impact more lives and save em' all!

have no worries

be more studious and worried about my studies

grow and grow and grow through God's word

SONGS THAT I THINK ARE AWESOME

None But Jesus-Hillsong

Unfaithful-Rihanna

Iris-Goo Goo Dolls

Collide-Howie Day

That Thing You Do-The Wanders

Someday We'll Know-MMoore and JForeman (Walk To Remember)

For You I Will-Teddy Geiger

Sidewalks-Story Of The Year

Be My Escape-Relient K

Halo-Bethany Joy Lenz (One Tree Hill)

I WANT

to be successful

to travel around Europe

filthy rich, drive a BMW, thousands of Blahniks and Jimmy Choos, wardrobe full of Marc Jacobs by thirty

HOW I SEE MYSELF IN TEN YEARS

married happily

live in a nice house with nice windows

two kids-a son with a mo hawk and a daughter in oshkosh

RANDOM FACTS

as it approaches exams, the more urgent I need retail therapy

I dislike all types of animals

I have a thing for bad boys (like who doesn't?)

I encourage mo hawk! (roxanne claims its chicken back side)

I think a short guy in college is cute!

I don't like my nose

I'm intimidated by smart people

still don't really like light sweet pink

soft spots for mushy songs

scratch my head when I'm sleepy

like watching SOUTH PARK. thanks to anonymous

can't perform the split no more

hate admitting I'm in a wrong

my mum doesn't like me watching Desperate Housewives

PEOPLE I TAG

ng ke xin

joanne lim

chor yeow

kevin lim

tracie grossie

done at : 1124pm

2006-09-08T11:58:00.000+08:00

its september already! I haven't fill you guys in about my birthday. there were lots and lots of pictures taken in my brand-new phone. I'm still trying to figure out how to upload in the computer. (knowing me). it has been quite a turbulence during my birthday because I was sick. but I had a great time with my bunch of friends as we went to barbeque plaza in one utama for dinner. we took lots of crazy pictures at the rainforest in OU, attacked forever21 and had lots of laugh... all of them met adam mackenzie and fought over the title mrs mackenzie. to roxanne, too bad you didn't go. or else you would have had a chance to sit in his car. ha ha ha.

not forgetting my sweetest bunch of friends who threw me a surprise birthday cake in cafeteria! I was so so surprised and touched at the same time. those naughty girls... they bought me my favourite, marble cheese from secret recipe. and blurry me had no idea about the 'come faye..lets go toilet thing..'

moving on, I just finished my test for maths yesterday. it was a bummer cause I didn't have enough time to finish it. but its alright. I'll do better next time. reconcile reconcile reconcile.

today, something scary happened in college. I used to get pissed at girls talking behind my back. but today, somebody actually posted nasty stuff about someone all over college. some girls can be so so viscious. I told janice we needed to be careful now.... this world is crazy.

and for YOU. reader you. who haven't got me a present. please do so soon. love. giggles.

2006-08-24T14:53:00.000+08:00

greetings! I have indeed lashed out in shopping yesterday. it was my second celebration for my birthday at italliannies with my fellow family.. (reminding you MY birthday is super round the corner). I managed to buy a topshop jeans, a top and a beige three quad pants from Forever21. today, I stopped by OU-again. and bought two other tops from forever. this forever21 is stealing my money!

more and more shopping to come. such passion.

2006-08-22T18:41:00.000+08:00

I almost forgot to tell how awesome was Explorace si Roxanne dragged me to go on a saturday morning! victimising janice, lynnie too. we arrived in coll at eight and they only started at nine. total coolness right? lack of sleep made me super agi. our first challenge was putting a cup in your mouth and carry as much water as you can up to three flights of stairs. stupid idiots gave us styrofoam cups which obviously keep on breaking long before we even start climbing the stairs. then they were CLEVER enough to replace paper cups. second, was to sell four muffins for rm4. we had to run like idiots all over the place, pleading for symphathetic souls to spare us and buy muffins. subang people are horrible people. now I know how those sales people feel. total turn off. third challenge was to play a black jack game. if we lose we have to drink a very DELICIOUS drink. and so I lose because the idiot had a 10 and A. growlie!~ I received my price. a TASTY drink with raw taufu, raw chillis, campbell mushroom soup straight up from the tin itself and two eggs. all blended and served! taste was horrendous. bluek I tell you. bluek. the last challenge was really a pain! we were given clues. which we obviously didn't know. we ran here and there outside college, many passerbys thought we just robbed a bank or something. in conclusion (cause I'm so lazy to continue typing), we were so smart yet so stupid.. aih. I can give you all details face to face. all in all, it was a great experience. we all lose some calories. which was good. after that, we went to pyramid to watch Click. I really really really think the show is a good. I give it an A+. I expected the show to be plain hilarious, plus I do not like Adam Sandler. suprised that the show does share some good values to appreciate every single minute we have and not to lose out on bad times because we might miss something significant.

ps = happy advanced bday roxxie. hope you like the Guess top I gave you. and thanks for the braccie. love it la. cause got my lovely name ma. love ya much.

2006-08-22T17:59:00.000+08:00

you cannot imagine how LONG I took to upload this page.. felt like eternity. I don't know what's wrong with the new registered streamyx. its giving me a head ache. so, back to square one. old tmnet. growl. I just came back from the curve. yes, this one week holiday provided is NOT, I repeat, NOT for me to prepare for my trials. but to have my retail therapy - shopping. as much of you already know. retail therapy failed today as I didn't buy anything nor entered my savouring clothing stores. instead I engaged myself into something different. I experienced first hand karaoke in Red Box. never in my entire life would faye ever imagined she would soak her sorrows, wasting money into singing in a small room that tastes like burnt cigarrates. indeed, I did go and it didn't turn out that bad. I still have to work on the stereotyping faye. its getting on my jitters. I had Paddington house of Pancakes for tea. my oh my. I was in seventh heaven. you peeps must go there someday. it is what you call by food that can make you- lose yourself in translation. ha ha. (exaggerated). seriously, its worth a shot.

mentioned in my last post about my sharing? oh.. it was full of greatness. I prepared before hand, researched. left the rest in God's hands. and by God's grace, two person commited their lives to our dearest God. honestly, I really didn't expect it. five non-Christians joined our CG that night after the One Way Youth Concert the night before. the two girls were touched by God's empowerness. I for once, landed into tears myself. never once have I felt the urgency to save and salvate. I mean, the thought has been there being a Christian. do we sweat and strive to do it? where are our priorities? our purpose on this earth? have we forgotten? have we been blindly attending church but forgetting the whole big picture? have you been doing your job well enough as a servant? how many of us has really grasp the true understanding-importance to bring lost kambings into God's kingdom? I finally felt it that night.

Thank you Lord for growing in my heart. It is just the beginning Lord. I will continue on this quest...

2006-08-17T14:22:00.001+08:00

I'm given the task to take the lead for CG this week. I'm so excited plus scared plus 'die if I say the wrong things'. its gonna be for form twos and threes. I hope all is good.. I'm picking on a topic based on expressing inner feelings and thoughts to leaders in church. I hope that they would not keep things bottled up inside and learn to share problems whether within family or friends to someone who is more mature in christ and advising. I mean, it was tough for me to express my problems to people I truly trust because I bottled things up. yup. one day, explosion. not so good. I hope to change that in people though. pulling them into more prayer and believing. all in all, having faith la.

Let me enlighten you with the casting I had. it was for a korean mag called dollie. they wanted to cut my hair like denise from mtv (more like eunice from taylors). so short and frightening! are you trying to tear my dignity? ha ha. and these fanatics wanted to shape my eye brows into those viscious looking brows you ever seen!! I was petrified! thankfully, I had my stand. they were like.. no cut, no shoot, no money!!! go get a doll instead of faye! bleh!

2006-08-17T14:22:00.000+08:00

2006-08-16T12:54:00.000+08:00

growing up reeks. the more you see. the more you know. the more you understand. the more you realise. the more the complications. the more the expectations. the harder it gets. i think life's brutal truth hits hard. i think in a sense. it suddenly smacks you right in the face that there's no definite answer to anything anymore. and this confuses you much. really. as beings of this complex world we're somewhat never satisfied with whatever we're blessed with throughout our lifetime. i'm not a life hater or anything. it's just that i'm a true believer of this brilliant proverb; ignorance is bliss. bah... i'm not saying that we should all go back to diapers and pacifiers. it's just that. when time prances along too quickly. you kinda fail to stop and smell the roses. fail to enrapture ourselves with the marvelousity of clouds. if you get my drift. honestly. at times i question myself as to what am i trying to achieve? i mean. other than the whole Godly situation. let's think about the world first for now.. i know at this age all that's expected of me is to excel in my studies. but then again there's more to me than merely education. though right now. i have no idea what *whines. come along now. reality awaits.. and by the way, this stinking life isn't getting more dramatic by the hours.

2006-08-07T13:16:00.000+08:00

i need to revise some things. and change. think i've been living in oblivion. i need the truth. to. hopefully. set me free. heh. it's bloody damaging to be constantly dodging. really. i'm beginning to learn alot about myself. i think. i. for one. fear complications. therefore. i squirm my way through. only to make matters worst. gah.the ignorance must stop too. yea. i always say that. but give me a few months and i'll fall back into this daze. i think there is an indisputable need to constantly check myself every now and then. mmhhmm..i ought to toughen up. be more sure of myself. where is this independence i've heard so much about? it's time i start employing this ever so necessary human feature. heh. no no. not just when it comes to getting my own laundry done and shopping for groceries. there is also the decision making. adjustments to change. adaptability? confrontation. it's what this whole experience is about isn't it?amy tan is ever so inspiring. the other day i mentioned how i interpret books differently after reading it the second time. as i've probably matured in thinking and therefore in different circumstances relate to what's written in context of whatever i'm going through. i completed tan's the opposite of fate today. i can relate to the beauty she sees in literature. she stated something along the lines of what i wrote before i read her book. which was utterly amazing really. writers may want to convey ideas that some readers might capture but others may define otherwise. i wouldn't call it misinterpretation. just the art of words. i fell in love with her writing because of her honesty and passion in conveying messages through fiction. not forgetting her one and only non-fiction book, the opposite of fate.about my former vow to improve myself. i also discovered some things in tan's book that makes alot of sense. my experience in trinity becomes clearer now. asians are often deemed "modest and discreet". with students like us getting education in western societies, these characteristics are often misinterpreted. westerners are more of the affirmitive, forthright kind. where as we asians tend to be more passive and in a constant battle for compromise whatever the situation. don't get me wrong. to me neither groups are in any way inferior to the other. there's no right or wrong here. they're just. different. i'm not here to discriminate against neither. rather i'm feeling quite the contrary. i'm ever so thankful to be blessed with the best of both worlds. sure. it can be a struggle as i am innately chinese. trying to adapt to a different world i would say. i agree with what amy tan have to say. when both worlds collide there are always important elements. lost in translation.it's applicable in my life really. and of course in the lives of many. though. not as much as those born in a western country with immigrant parents like amy. anyways. no doubt i have always been passive. was my freedom to express limited from the way i was brought up? is that why i'm ever so secretive, quiet and suffocated from lack of means for output? thus resulting in the person i am today *looks at self* not all that bad really. i vowed to improve. and improve i shall.

2006-08-03T14:42:00.000+08:00

and the crowd went...
PUSSY PUSSY PUSSY PUSSY! meow...

2006-08-02T14:48:00.000+08:00

day starting with a biology common test wasn't that bad except the paper wasn't as easy as I expected it to be. glad its the last paper of the week. my brains are exhausted (not that I over studied or anything.. laugh). I had lunch with classmates at success (opposite asia cafe). for starters, I forgot my wallet and had to borrow money. which I totally do-not-like. then we popped by this boutique. I'm so going back there to get two tops and a belt. (after browsing for five minutes in a shop... well done faye). if only I was that enthusiastic in studying. bah!!

as I continue to galloped back to college. my thongs. chi plak thongs gave way!!! the strap in between the main toe and the second toe came off. there I was stranded surrounded by girls from my class. I don't know whether to laugh or be sad over such luck. anyway, I walked one foot bare all the way to the cobbler. thankfully, they actually have a cobbler nearby. and yes, typical malaysians staring at me one-of-the-kind.. I thought this whole incident was funny. it sort of made my day actually... something to giggle about.

the cobbler did a good job. he sewed it so its okay now. he wanted one dollar (much to my surprise). but God spoke to me (God speaks to me in very very weird times). He sort of made me realised that a cobbler like that could not earn much from his daily job of fixing shoes. besides, what would I do if he wasn't there to fix it? he doesn't get much customers anyway. wouldn't I have to walk bare one-foot on the horrible tar road? all this man needs is a random of kindness in return... so I decided to give him five instead.. though it wasn't bombastically 50 ringgit. I think he deserved more in saving one's day..when was the last time I helped God's people?

going out of that, PCD's concert was great! I'll update you guys with photos the next entry!!! don't forget to love me now!! giggles...

2006-07-21T14:20:00.000+08:00

I am not very happy about this! why isn't anyone going for the pussycat dolls? I can't be going alone can I? by the rate I'm going, I think I can't find anyone who wants to go (which obviously I don't understand, looking at how amazing dancers they are). who cares about exams?!!! they don't come every year you know... growl..

Let me tell you a little about faye tips.

1) never over eat in your one hour break because you'll end up sleeping face flat, and wake up with the chemistry teacher right in front of you

2) never wear thongs to casting because they EXPECT you to be in heels. (other wise they don't have heels MY size)

3) NEVER EVER laugh the faye-laugh (because some people think its disturbing)

4) learn from wai yip how to escape from robbers. (salute him)

5) NEVER wear topshop pants. taylor's is a topshop central and ZARA too. sheesh

6) ALWAYS shave your armpits (because daniel caught a girl, with a bushy blackberry farm in her underarms..not so nice. trust me)

I saw my cute guy today!!!! after a thousand years! so far. I'm the only one who think he's cute like a teddy bear. other's say he is so small and short. yup..he is very short and small... but he's so CUTE. pinchable cheeks I tell you!!! oh well.. I syok sendiri only. I don't like him okay? my heart belongs to chad michael murray.... gush...

2006-07-14T14:15:00.000+08:00

hello there!~ its friday once again. somehow-not so much of looking forward to the weekend (don't know why). I'm perplexed. again. I'm so pathetic too! I feel so bad for treating denial last night! I ditched him alone. and details shall be not elaborated.. its not right for me to treat a friend like that! I felt horrible after that.. what's wrong with me now? at least I bought his a chocolate to make him fat today...

I was thinking just a few days ago. what have I done in the past seven months in college? I have to agree that spreading the gospel in college is much harder than in school days. reminiscence for example? Convent had CF meetings, prayer meetings, events and all. that really attracted people. besides for just coming for food and games, at least they've heard the word-a lil. in college, people are just raptured in their daily lives. they prefer to hang out with friends and whatever.. getting friends to get to INTI rally was tough as they wanted to sleep (who wouldn't?), got things to do and yada yada. it wasn't interesting or fun anymore. they were more engrossed in exhilarating programmes like taylors next top model, samfest and blahhh... and yeah, they prefer to pay 10 bucks for the dance competition happening tonight. (which faye prefers to stay at home and read my Aristotle books that I borrowed from Sia Chi). It seems that people in college are more complexed and harder to crack. as I was thinking, I realised God must have been shaking his head to my slacking-ness. I have to find my little victims, without a doubt. I am filled with endless determination from now on!!

I am going for my first casting tomorrow!!! ahhhhhhh! wish me luck!

2006-07-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

I'm trying to hang on while searching for something enriching and amorous,

However, what I've been seeking for appears to be impracticable and arduous to find.

No matter how disheartened,

I still assumed I'd have compassion in my life someday

But I have realized that the word inept describes the thoughts that run through my mind.

I interrogate myself a million times a day but unfortunately, I receive no response

I cannot seem to find what's wrong with me and I don't know what is my transgression.

I would only prove myself to be a coward

Thus, I shall now acknowledge that I'm a coward to live as well as a coward to die.

I've been staying strong and forcing contentment but it made me more wretched inside

And that's why people assume I am exultant and that it is impossible for me to cry.

Everyday, when my life gets filled with more enmity, more dejection and more insanity,

Yet, for some reason, I sometimes find myself staying positive and wanting to live,

Thinking it's all just a bad chapter in my life and things aren't as grim as they may seem.

The Lord whom I seek comfort in, selfless in love games He plays

Who am I to be a bitter hermit, filled with thoughts that cloud the truth

If Jesus was crucified, what am I to compare?

Insignificant.

I am the holder of what becomes of tomorrow

Shall evil seize thou from trying?

And the battle goes on and on...

But He, has won all wars that never happened.

With His force of power in the palm of my hands, signifying an invisible sharp sword in my grip,

against any evilness,

I can behold all roaring seas and thunders.

very very copyright. 1152pm. (not sucidal, just expressive).

2006-07-10T10:54:00.000+08:00

date has changed from the 12th to 13th (Thursday). give ya support by being there!!~

2006-07-07T12:47:00.000+08:00

As happens sometimes a moment settled and hovered and remained for much more than a moment. And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a moment. And then the moment was gone.

Ida Scott Taylor once wrote: Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.

Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty, this hatred, how did it find us? Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us that we now send our children into the world like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return, but knowing that some would be lost along the way. When did we lose our way? Consumed by the shadows. Swallowed whole by the darkness. Does this darkness have a name? Is it your name?

2006-07-07T12:07:00.000+08:00

sollie! been runninng around instead of blogging my heart out. these past few weeks have been really humid, its getting to me though. I sleep with 16 celsius with the fan tuned to three. and its still warm! so what have I been doing anyway? it has been a week of family dinners after dinners. the slab of fat is gonna form at my ass if this goes on. from tgif to vietnam kitchen to chillis to madam kwan's to imperial china to baby sharks! which is tonight.

and no. this whole ordeal of starting to study is not working out. instead I'm indulging myself into deeper nicholas sparks romanticising stories and more of artic monkeys-the strokes-andgels and airwaves. this is no good.

there's this place in kapar town that sells great baby shark food! they fry it and all. its SUPER nice. I know its cruel and all, but faye can't say no to good food can she? NOPE. so ring me, I bring you k? heh heh heh.

I stumbled lina-old friend! she barely even recognised me! she said my features look more feminine now. compared to keganasan. I was over the moon. but that doesn't mean, no trucker caps and cargo pants for me.

the dancing classes have been great! I'm almost three quarter way in the song Beep. and loving it. sigh. I love dancing. btw, I saw bobby from UGDN in pyramid. he still freaks me out with his bboy stunts. freaky but woahhh.

interschool rally klang is happening tomorrow btw..

2006-06-28T11:07:00.000+08:00

my favourite picture of ~~the week~~

2006-06-28T11:03:00.000+08:00

all in 'tee-gee-aii-eff'

and the posing comes..naturally

2006-06-28T10:37:00.000+08:00

I am growing an insey weensey semangat in me to work harder for the next test. hopefully it'll work out without my laziness slapping me in. I've been doing absolutely nada every weekend! I'm asking God to help me reconcile. I spent my whole weekend watching season 3's OTH. have I mentioned how chad's eyes penetrate my heart? drools**

Should I go for Zara's sales though the next day I have ESL presentation? such temptation.... why do the world make my life so miserable?!!!!!

I bought a set of clothings even though I went to Singapore. I need to go counseling.... someone control me before I turn insane!!!!!!!!!!

2006-06-24T12:01:00.000+08:00

its the sweet taste of weekend once again. I'll be playing drums for youth tomorrow. after a long time of not touching it. I hope I still can beat up some tune. I got really irritated yesterday (friday). I actually finished everything but I lost one of my photostated source. I was double pissed. thankfully, janicey was there in the library with me. I felt really bad especially for those I snapped at. apologies.

during break, it was much cooler then. I was so HAPPY to get home and take a long nap. my dark eye ring was horrible. I don't know why, even though how MUCH I sleep its still there. oh well...

and I saw the UGLIEST mo hawk yesterday. guys, if you want to do mo hawk, please seek for assistance. or else, JUST DON'T DO IT!

tonight is the celebration with my cousins sisters in TGIF. and a time to ransack MNG sales. I LOVE TO SHOP.

2006-06-22T16:19:00.000+08:00

I completed physics finally! gah... waste my time!

all the best to roxanne tomorrow night in giving her testimonial. hope to see you guys in the pre-rally! over and out.

2006-06-21T12:21:00.000+08:00

MY NEW FAVOURITE SERIES!!!!!

8th and OCEAN!

Teddy is super hot. like steamy sizzling. hotter than chad..!! drools like a pig.

MTV 1030pm on Tues and 130pm on Sats.

2006-06-20T12:48:00.000+08:00

I take things for granted. Sometimes when I don’t get the material things I want, I find a way somehow to get it. Not being entirely grateful with the things I have. I was touched with a family from church. This girl comes for tuition and she’s the sweetest thing. Her mum is a tailor where else her dad left them when she was born, not declaring his children. The weight of burden on the mother’s is tremendous. I love my mum for the random act of kindness towards them. I talked to my mum about this girl and persuaded her to lessen the fees. Surprisingly my mum talked to her mother and offered free lessons. Of course, the mother declined but then, submitted. She was so so so so thankful for that simple act. I’m filled with emotions to know for there are people who are grateful for the so little figure of money they can save. And there are people like us who are blessed to the best, expensive college around, having maids, enough food and money. I can only ask from God to shelter these unfortunate people. I thank the Lord for they’re saved by grace and believe in Your goodness. For a person who earns just enough to feed the family is sacrificial enough to spend money to educate her child for her better tomorrow. I’m speechless. I’m aware. I’m going to learn from this.
Lend a hand to pray for them okay? She has two children who are very young of age. Remember to give God all the glory for every ounce in our blessed lives.

moving to another topic, I so so regret I dodn't go for the Immortal Prom for the mass comm students! remember the time when click five was playing for their prom which only costs rm99? I watched channel [v] and they were airing it on air. I was like darn. stupid me. missing an opportunity. chels says eric is so good looking. and she has a picture of him!!!! growl...

2006-06-19T13:26:00.000+08:00

(daniel: faye rawk my sawks=P hAHA..she's not around..im messing up her post=P) yes. he typed this while I wasn't around.

I'm thrilled. dance practice starts this saturday.. I can't wait. just so you might know, I'm gonna start with learning the choreography of Beep by the PCD. in august, I get to learn Buttons! how cool is that. I live the dance moves. the dance classes are burning a big hole in mum's pocket, but I promise fully to behave myself and to be obedient in my studies. no pain. no gain.

I'm trying my very best to finish my physics asap and get over it! today in college when I was in the toilet.. there were a bunch of girls that were obviously gossiping. they were like you know whose faye? the other says ya ya ya..(dengan excitement). she very tall la.. the first girl says, she has a nice sense of fashion la all her clothes nice nice one. the another girl says the one like to wear three quads right? the other other says... ya la. she very one kind one la..everytime look like so angry like that. I don't like her laaa...

fuiyoh. hot gossipnya... aku tak tahan la.then I came out of the cubicle, their facial expressions were candid! money can never buy the fear in those eyes. they were staring at me but I was nice enough to smile.

I don't see anything offensive. but hilarious that they were talking so loud when I was busy 'kencing-ing'. tsk tsk tsk. oh well. at least I have got a good sense of dressing. la la la.

sighning off.

2006-06-14T10:40:00.000+08:00

one of those days.

2006-06-14T10:13:00.000+08:00

wa wa wa... its wednesday. buhuhu. I have a bio presentation tomorrow (so not ready-or started). I'm in one of those dreamy mood again.. daydream daydream... and I haven't started physics. why am I so lackadasical. tell me tell me... I can't stand myself.

don't let nobody tell you, your life is over..

2006-06-12T11:00:00.000+08:00

college traumatic first day! I'm sleepy sleepy sleepy. got all my papers today. faye needs comforting, buhu. me and my hommies went to 1U on saturday. forever21 is a hit! i was sadly dissapointed-once again that some stuff I bought in Spore was more expensive. oh well. no can do.. I regretted that I didn't buy a particular jeans from french connection. it was a good buy... growl!

I can't believe its 2nd semester already. its driving me nuts that I have to slot through the next few months of studying 3 science subjects before doing a non-science degree..

INTI's Rally

Date : 12th July 2006 (wednesday? tanya la david prince... tsk tsk tsk)

Theme : S.O.S (Rihanna? hmmm...)

Venue : INTI SJ Basketball Court (they're not expecting much people.tsk tsk tsk)

Time : 6.30pm

Speaker : Ps. Ryan Foo

cruel me. muahaha..

2006-06-08T13:31:00.000+08:00

I don't wanna go another day

So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind

Seems like everybody is breaking up

And throwing their love away

But I know I got a good thing right here

That's why I say

Nobody gonna love me better,

I must stick wit u forever

Nobody gonna take me higher,

I must stick wit u

You know how to appreciate me,

I must stick wit u, my baby

Nobody ever made me feel this way,

I must stick wit u

I don't wanna go another day

So I'm telling you,

exactly what is on my mind

See the way we ride,

in our private lives

Ain't nobody gettin' in between

I want you to know that,

you're the only one for me (one for me)

(When I say)Nobody gonna love me better,

I must stick wit u forever

Nobody gonna take me higher,

I must stick wit u (nobody)

You know how to appreciate me,

I must stick wit u, my baby

Nobody ever made me feel this way,

I must stick wit u

And now,

ain't nothing else I could need

And now,

I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me

I got you, we'll be making love endlessly

I'm with you (baby I'm with you)

Baby you're with me (baby you're with me, higher)

So don't cha worry about

People hanging around

They ain't bringing us down

I know you, and you know me

And that's all that counts

So don't cha worry about

People hanging around

They ain't bringing us down

I know you, and you know me

And that's, that's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better,

I must stick wit u forever

Nobody gonna take me higher,

I must stick wit u

You know how to appreciate me,

I must stick wit u, my baby

Nobody ever made me feel this way,

I must stick wit u

although this song is old, I still think its really nice. I'm mushy. gahhh....

2006-06-08T12:38:00.000+08:00

mushi again! yes, I returned from singapore in one whole piece. it was a nice enjoyable shop-till-you-drop dead typo trip!

first day when I arrived (sunday), I didn't do much except staying at my auntie's house watching tele. second day, I met up with Amanda and Sarah at Heeren (Orchard Road). all of us marched through out orchard road and particularly me, went NUTS in GUESS.we had a nicey time. so much to see, so little time. on the third day, we went to Citylink Mall and Suntec City. me and Amanda was approached by stalkers several times. (Amanda,everytime I go CityHall.. I get the same question for eight days! stalkers la..heh heh). but all was good. yet again, GUESS in Suntec City was overpowered by three girls. ha ha. because they had something on that night, me and mum went back to Takashimaya in Orchard. we shopped till 12 midnight that night. I fell sick that very night with fever flu and sore throat.

not giving up, I went back and took two pills. woke up at ten and continued my quest in Bugis with Manda and Sarah. nothing much to shop about. later, these girls were going home to msia already. so mum insisted I went back home and rest... and I obeyed.. =) I didn't go out on Thursday either, stayed at my aunt's house. (eat sleep watch tv). btw, their tele is filled with nice programmes unlike our tv channels here... on Friday, I went to Marina Square! thanks to elyn! that place is huge, reminds me of Charleston in Aust. girls..their ZARA is a four shop lot! I was like a girl in a candy shop. I wouldn't say thier products are cheaper but there is more variety though (exchange rate 2.3). me and mum spent a lot in Esprit. a lot lot. like mum could get six chops for some reward card thing. like what they have it here? you spend 100ringgit you get one chop. its the same there too. mum bought so many clothes for herself! she lost herself.. ha ha! and for the second time, we shopped till 12 midnight at Marina Square and Raffles City.

on saturday, I went to Tampines Mall. I bought some accesories here and there. for all that go to Singapore, you must must must try Pasta Mania in Tampines Mall. its like Itallianies here, a bit cheaper instead. their toasted bruschetta is ssssssssssssssooooooooo scrumptous! typing it makes my saliva drool.. later that night, we returned earlier cause I had a dance thing to go to at FAD in Toa Payoh. people from broadway demonstrated the dance for our selection for the comp end of this year. dance choreography is either ciara or pcd. I chose PCD. we have to preform two songs.

and yes, either both I choose must be presented to Wade Robson, with which if I get chosen. will get a contract to dance in Broadway. much experience to gain in this...

sunday! shop shop shop shop shop. went to Orchard. at night we went to Parkway..nothing much to buy there. can't really remember what I did that day...

Monday was the day I had to salute goodbye to the beloved shopping complexes! it was a sad moment (sob sob...). three people going to singapore with four bags? and we return with......... 11 bags!!!!!!! ha ha ha. we had excess baggage and the stupid officer wanna fine us 120dollars! mum was so pissed. she was like no money no money. that officer was like I don't care you go get it somewhere. cheap people's money. podah...

yesterday (wed), we went to mid valley to meet my auntie who just returned from shanghai. we had mdm kwan's. and shopped a little. I was devastated to see the Cortex Nike Shoes! I bought it for 240ringgit thinking they don't have it here. and guess what? they sell it here for 199ringgit! gah.... so angry!!

today. I'm in college trying to do physics. as you can read, I'm happily blogging..

I want to thank God for something which kept me worrying the whole trip in singapore. I thank God for giving me a second chance.. who could imagine what would have happened. Lord, there is none like You.

2006-05-26T14:44:00.000+08:00

what else can I say? HOLIDAY! yahoooo!~ I've officially finished my mid terms and having two weeks break before the next term! glorious splendid!!! yeee hah!! time flies so fast... sooo fast

first start, I don't think I'll pass in any papers. I did study (last minute) and it triggers off being blank. that helps a lot. its like these memory can't stay in my head. I need to be kiasu I need to be kiasu! I just came back from watching Da Vinci. I reckon the book holds more info though. pity those who didn't touch the book. you are so clueless.. overall? 5/10 I give.

is it me or I think that most people can't contain themselves to keep their secrets to themselves? I don't know why people love to tell their secrets. not that I don't like to listen. but I wonder can they stand NOT telling? if I can why can't they? ponder...

leaving for Singapore on Sunday. I need clothes and everything. I'll be there for eight days. so don't miss me!!!

2006-05-18T12:36:00.000+08:00

today and yesterday was a 180 degrees flop. yesterday, I had a nice day. there was a giveaway of free food and mcd's in college. I managed to catch the 3.05 pm train. (for the first time). I had mcd's for dinner. received manola heels, tifanny bracelet.. (muah ha ha) lucky for me.

today I somehow suffered from severe breakdown of stress. first start, denial didn't come. so I didn't get to listen to his mp3. its raining cats and dogs and I forgot to bring my cardigan. I also suffered from stress from doing maths. I was VERY annoyed with my maths teacher. correction still VERY annoyed. she FLIRTS with guys my age (and she's 30). likes to grob them all around (eew). and, pass them for maths. see there's this guy in my class who flunked his paper, five marks up to go. she passed him somehow somewhere. and me here, having just one more mark to pass... gets to fail! yahooo!!!! I don't care if she wants to touch them wherever, but the double standard makes me barf my guts. If I obtain just a mark, I pass with an extra point in my raw score! it is one mark difference in my TER point for SAM. hello? big deal..this is ssooooo unfair. growl. double growl. slap her somebody. I don't want to discriminate her but this is against human's rights okay! this is against faye's rights!!!!!

annoyingness.. exam is next week and I'm not prepared!!! I'm kinda freaked out..!!

Da Vinci opens today. I'm gonna watch and no one's gonna stop me... bah.

2006-05-16T11:58:00.000+08:00

I think the new album from Hoobastank is really coolie. managed to download some tunes.. people. listen to arctic monkeys! yahoo! I'm still happy despite my exams coming up.

can I just say people in college are weird? and finally, I spotted a guy that is cute looking. not hot. just cute. no interest. too short. but still nice to look at. I'm so guilty. i'm sorry...

2006-05-14T22:47:00.000+08:00

yawn! I'm so sleepy now. know why? I didn't catch my nap in the afternoon. not exactly. I woke up at eight but napped from eleven to one. I was so so so sleepy. I dreamt of Jay Chou. It was so weird. but nice.. Today's Mother's Day. Mum wore the top I bought and I was sweet enough to make her a card.. We went to Italiannies for lunch. my tummy went from zero to a hero! it was bulging. horrible sight I must say. Spontaneously we decided to catch MI3. So we grabbed tickets for the later show and walked around. Shockingly, I met ah Yeow there. I got it I tell you... why didn't you call me? lalala.. come back so long... lalala... I was kinda dissapointed with myself for not seeing him after he came back. what type of friend am I anyway? I also met Joel. my goodness, he lost so much weight with the management of UGDN. suddenly I realised my social life has been down the drain since college. Ke Xin reminded me of days when you might say, I was active in many things. Other than being busy, I'm just really really tired. I just prefer to be laid back. things are so much easier when they are simplier. honestly.

I saw a really nice pair of heels. Now when Faye says the heels are nice. They are really really nice. (cause faye doesn't like heels). they looked like jimmy choo's. how much? rm319. gah.... perposterous.

Mission Impossible is indeed a nice show. really recommended for you viewers. Maggie Q is gorgeously hot. She has nice pouty lips. Tom Cruise is still good looking. I was 'terpersona-ed'. the movie was a thriller except that people sitting next to me were so noisy. I was so irritated and personally wanted to slap the whole family! talk talk and talk... I hate people who talk in movies!

I saw a girl wearing a shirt that said :

'If sex is a pain in the ass, then you're doing it wrong'

another girl that had a shirt hollering :

'I was voted most flexible by your boyfriend'

thank god for creativity in msia. finally...

2006-05-13T13:05:00.000+08:00

last time I wore my fave earrings! one side got missing!!!! wail..!

haagen daaz!

supposed to be an 'ah-lian' picture. whatcha think? giggle...

no. she's not available (cousin sis)

participant of Malaysian Fear Factor (cousin sis)

random. bored. (this was two months back)

2006-05-13T12:17:00.000+08:00

I flunked maths for the first time in my entire life!~ one more mark to pass! One friggin’ mark!!! How frustrating!!!!!! I’m actually pretty disappointed with myself for being such a lackadaisical. One thing that I lack is kiasu-ness. I told myself so so so many times to study study study. Either I fall asleep half way..watch tele or something comes out.. Mid year is in two weeks time and I have to start studying already. (its kinda late already anyway). And try… to finish my homework. Sigh… I am so lazy.

Bio draft is due on Monday. Growl! Surprisingly I’ve finished it.. heh heh! Shocking. I watched Poseidon on Friday at Sunway (Teacher's Day). I think its not dramatic enough for my liking. But its not too bad. Is it worth watching MI3? Gahh…

I bought mum her Mother’s Day gift already...I got her a black spaghetti top from Dorothy Perkins. Its quite nice and classy…

Not shockingly, I didn't get JPA. I only checked after I got back from sunway.. knowing that I didn't get. (rolls eyes). no bummer...

I need to study! I need to study!!!!!!!!

2006-05-07T18:39:00.000+08:00

mushi mushi! (in faye tone). what a nice weather to sleep and not wake up... last night, we had dinner with my three crazy cousins studying here. this time we went to Just Thai in One U. the food is so exotic-ly spicy! I like... it was a valuble family time! I'm overjoyed over buying a new jeans from ZARA after handing in my ESL assignment. what a treat.. It was the last piece and I knew I just had to grab it before someone else does! bah!

I've realised that I have very little bottoms to wear!!! ahhhhhh!~ fyi, I have not repeated a single top in my whole four months plus of college days!!!! but my bottoms are worn so ever ever frequently. somehow I get distracted by tops and buy them more than jeans/pants. and no way am I gonna wear my mini mini skirt to college. I've seen these sex frantics staring at chiq's from the lower floor... eew.

I need clothes. I need a really HUGE handbag too. I don't care. I want sunglasses. I want blings... I want I want.

oh well.. I'm pathetic.

2006-05-05T18:13:00.000+08:00

what a horrendous week it has been. oh well..not that bad. but still nasty. I spent my last week's holidays doing next to nothing. of eating and sleeping like a pig. to shopping and nada-nothingggg... it paid off as I had to submit that English project TODAY! I only started my panic mode on wednesday where me and janice stayed back to do some research. let's just say my draft was a stinky one-full of mistakes-and what am I DOING? my goodness... thanks to myself for always NOT listening in class but sleeping. when I approached that teacher for help..she grinned ear to ear. "Faaye.... you're always in a daze....". HEY> I"M NOT ALWAYS IN A DAZE! how could she? heh heh..

me and jan stayed back till almost eight last night in coll.. know why? MY FRIGGIN FILE OF RESEARCH WAS DELETED! (I deleted it). how STUPID can I be? so I have to type the WWWWWWWWWWWWWWHOOOOOLEEEEEEEEEE thing again... actually? serve me right la~! so careless... (as usual). nearly drove me maaaaddd!

well..I managed to finish it and submit it right on time! I just woke up from my beautiful nap and ready to kick action!

and I'm a happy girl today. I had bah kut teh for lunch in subang....!!!!!! it was kinda nice...!

2006-04-30T19:16:00.000+08:00

am I naive all this while?

ZARA clothes can actually be CHEAPER than Esprit clothes. what has the world come to? and now, I don't hate GUESS that much anymore.. (its not a slutty brand tracie?). I guess I didn't like the whole big billboards for ads of GUESS. very well... and I U is so so so so so so so boring. I need Singapore at this mo. Its like whatever I buy I can see one or two girls in Taylors wearing. Talking about total annoying-ness....

Should I go for Dance Valley? Sounds like clubbing-with no alcohol and smoking. How sweet is that? total sweetness............. sweet.