silly ramblings of a silly wabbit
Sunday, April 17, 2005
5:48 AM
ouch. my head hurts. it goes like a heartbeat up in my head. its nerve wrecking,mood swinger,disasterous you may say. cut it short and sweet-im sick.
vommited yesterday after Maths. i thought my whole lungs was going to come out. passing out is not common to me. can barely recall the last time i did. it was even worse when i saw drips of blood. am i going to die? i started crying in my heart. tears rolled down. the pain was making me blur. out of this world. this universe.
i couldn't breathe. i couldn't sleep. i couldn't think. i thought to myself what if this is the end for me. coughing non-stop. i tried to use the pain to lullaby myself to sleep. but i couldn't..
i went to Accounts anyhow. he was starting a new topic. mum didn't want me to go tuition but i said i was very very fine. [i didn't tell her about the blood] and so she said i was stubborn. and so i am... i felt really lousy but i tried not to show it anyhow. it was freaking cold. and it felt like the longest two hours. friends thought i was kinda alright..but i was-not myself. i cracked jokes to stay hyper.. but it was worth it. after medication,it wasn't that nauseating anymore.
today's Saturday. afternoon,silent beholds. music from God rejoices my heart. puts a slight smile in my face.
guess i wouldn't be making it for ballet class. i just want to go into a deep deep sleep. do you ever feel that you don't want to wake up to face the days to come? sometimes i do. sometimes i don't. i don't wanna die right now. im too young.. but aren't you tired of just living each day?
what am i talking about? i don't even know myself. my head is just spinning like a merry go round. its mad..
ONE TREE HILL TONIGHT - 10.30pm 8tv
da da da....
get the rawr faye:
acting all silly willy
naughty!
very smiley biggie!
most of the time crazy..
listening to crappy music?
yup. dancing is thy poison
first class exaggerator =p
slave for my own taste of lousy fashion
hairbands, enormous earrings
very fidelity
absolute
clumsy at times
non-bogus
complex
peevish in the morns
fixation on Chad M.Murray,Wentworth Miller,Oliver Goodwill
violins and ballets
au naturalle photographs
drums and guitars were yesterdays...
of ten in one are put into past. if you don't mind
bored,reading my blog this mo;
left their footprints;
